Captivated

Every time I tried to go on with my life before I fall for you, you messed it up by appearing very charming and attracting every single molecule in my body, makes me feel like I can't get away from you, the charm that I can only feel. Only me, no one can feel your charm the way I do. But here I am, sitting on my couch, blogging about my stupid rejected feeling towards you.
A few days ago, I thought I was freed from your charm. I thought, "This guy can distract my mind from you, I'm sure." That's what I think, but not what happened.
The way you move, your glance makes me hard to keep my eyes of you. It's not that you're this charming, handsome, wholesome boy, no, you're not. We all know the fact that you're not even luckier than I am when it comes to love. You've been rejected a few times and can't even move on from your past. But again, here I am, not even better than you are, blogging craps about you, when it's so obvious that I can't even catch your mind. There is no space in your mind that is captivated by me.

These few weeks been such a rough time for me. Trying so hard not to bothered by the thought of you, by words that you gave me, the glances that makes me hard to keep my eyes of you. Again, it's very hard not to take a look at you, moreover when you're also looking at me, and then you raise your eyebrow to me. I wish that I can make you love me the way I want you to feel, but then again, it's not love when I want you to feel the same thing as I felt.

But yesterday, you appear as charming as usual to me, making me love you like I used to, before those words broke my heart. We talked, we sat next to each other, like nothing had happened before. Again, you stole my focus that moment when you enter that door, walk with such a goody stomps. Stop making me love you then I'll set you free from my mind.

Songs

It's been a long time since I posted my last post!
Well this time, I'm going to post about songs that reminds me of people. They could be girl friends, guy friends, exs, crushes, and many other people who are related to me.

First of all, since he's my muse on this post, then I should mention him first.

You give me something - James Morrison
He was this guy, I've known for... yea I can say around 7 years, and I know him well. I know him well doesn't mean that we had a thing, no. He was just the guy who used to sit around me in classes.
So, now, the question: Why am I relating this guy to this song?
Answer: So one night, I was on my way to see a movie with him, just the two of us. It's just his typical move when trying to get a girl, sending her a song that he cover. He's been offering me to cover a song for him, so I asked him to sing this song for me, and on that drive to the movie, he sent it. Still didn't see it coming. For short, the night didn't turn to be good and I realized that he got a thing for me, which I turned down, of course.

Pumped up kicks - Foster the People
The song that always successfully reminds me of my ex. Clearly. No need such a brief explanation.
Okay, maybe I need to explain it a bit.
So, the question: Why am I relating my ex to this song?
Answer: So, one night, I was very much longing for him, after a few outings with him, well, lots of outing with him, he texted me if I know this song, which I didn't at the moment, then he sent me voice note of this song. Since then, every time I listen to this song, it'll be him I think about.

Any songs - Paris Hilton
Sounds tacky, isn't it? But this is our thing, up until now. This is my very best friend since high school.
So, here is the question: Why am I relating my high school best friend to this song?
Answer: There is no particular event, it's just that, since the 10th grade, we will be sitting next to each other on school trips, and it's funny that Paris Hilton's song is always there when we share music on the trip.

You Took My Love  - Pitbull
She's a girl from my friend in college. She's a party girl, and nothing that I can really say to describe her.
Here comes the question: Why am I relating this friend in college to this song?
Answer: When we were still hang out, every time we took a ride with her car, we sang to this song. It's not just me who's reminded to her by this song, but also my friends

Titanium - David Guetta
This song is remind me of my very good friend from college, we always hang out and I can say that she's the closest friend I have in my college life.
Questiooon: Why am I relating her with this song?
Answer: She have this bull tattoo, because she's a taurus. But the taurus is not just a taurus, the taurus was formed by "Titanium"so if you read the tattoo, you'll see that it's actually written "Titanium" and she said that that song means something to her, which I have no idea what is it up until now.

Let Me Love You - Ne-Yo
Again, my friend from college. We're also very close but not as close as the Titanium girl. We also hang out all the time.
What's the question again? oh. Why am I relating this friend to this song?
I'll answer it with: she sing to this song all the time, from the top of her lung, as if she's singing this song with her whole heart. Well, the point is that she sing this song with such a deep feeling, and sing this a lot, even if I take a ride with her car, there is a probability that we'll be sing to this song three or four times, and you have to take a note that the ride is only about 30 minutes ride... Well yea that's a lot of repetition.

Come Back Home - Two Doors Cinema
This is such a good friend of mine since High School. We had something, a few times, but never really make it. It was such a complicated relationship we had.
So, Why am I relating this song to this guy friend?
The answer is that, back in the beginning of our friendship, he sent me this song. He used to sent me weird things, like horror and stuffs to fright me, or even sad song to make put me in a bad mood, that's just so him. That's why at first I was curious about this song but didn't want to open it, but after I listened to this song, I fell in love with it.

Mirror - Justin Timberlake
This guy is like a good friend of me that I've never met since we knew each other. Once he wants to visit me, but I said no because it was waaaay too early to meet someone you just knew.
So, the background of why am I relating this song to him is that, in the beginning of our talks, he told me to watch a cover of this song, also at the moment I was very in love with this song, so I think it was a very funny coincidence, which makes us close very fast.

That's all that I can think about for now, maybe next time if I came up with something I may make a new post. Thanks for reading!