Well, don't get me wrong. I know being 19 isn't that old, but I feel like as if it's a meaningless birthday.
I got nothing to wait for, there's no "significant others"who will give a damn about me getting older. At least last year I still got that one person and this year... none.
You know, like when you got 18, you'll be legal for some things, when you're 17 somehow people make it special, and there's this f-ing sweet 16, and even when you were only 15, it's a special number. But how about 19? Does it gonna bring me any difference?
When I remember my birthday this year, I thought, well, I'll get a chance to have dinner with my best friends, my gang. But then, ugh, I just remember, one of my best friend won't be here until at least 2 weeks after my birthday so that I can't have my birthday dinner on my birthday with them.
Somehow I just wanna pass this birthday with sleep thru the day and wake up the next day. I got no expectation at all about that particular day.
Maybe, just maybe, it's all because things that I went thru this year. A few heart breaks, one of them was very rough. Many tears for sure, though the laughs were uncountable. But still, I feel so empty that I don't even wanna pass that day.
Quoting from my friend, maybe this year is not about the number, but it's about how I find the meaning of it. But I don't know, I feel nothing about it.
I got nothing to wait for, there's no "significant others"who will give a damn about me getting older. At least last year I still got that one person and this year... none.
You know, like when you got 18, you'll be legal for some things, when you're 17 somehow people make it special, and there's this f-ing sweet 16, and even when you were only 15, it's a special number. But how about 19? Does it gonna bring me any difference?
When I remember my birthday this year, I thought, well, I'll get a chance to have dinner with my best friends, my gang. But then, ugh, I just remember, one of my best friend won't be here until at least 2 weeks after my birthday so that I can't have my birthday dinner on my birthday with them.
Somehow I just wanna pass this birthday with sleep thru the day and wake up the next day. I got no expectation at all about that particular day.
Maybe, just maybe, it's all because things that I went thru this year. A few heart breaks, one of them was very rough. Many tears for sure, though the laughs were uncountable. But still, I feel so empty that I don't even wanna pass that day.
Quoting from my friend, maybe this year is not about the number, but it's about how I find the meaning of it. But I don't know, I feel nothing about it.
